Friday, December 6, 2013

Day 3

Day 3 is here and we are getting close to finishing round 4...well kind of close. One of his chemos runs for 24hrs straight per bag...making just the one run 72 hours straight. I have had a harder time with him getting chemo this time around. Sad things have happened recently in one of my cancer support groups and although I am trying to stay positive I have moments where I am just terrified of what Beckham's fate could be. Maybe the holidays have a part in that too. Since we don't know the outcome of this all...I have this mission to make every holiday, birthday, event the best I can make it. I'm in memory mode...creating memories that is...
Anyway, the hospital gives us write ups of the medications that they give Beckham. I, of course, research them more. One of his chemos happens to have a couple nicknames...."red death" and "red devil"....just what a mother wants to read. Why oh why...ugh...I am putting my trust in the doctors though that they know the proper way to heal Beckham. I am doing my best to use alternative methods I have read about, and approved with his doctors, as well. Sigh....I'm one worn out mama.

I think he is over it. I take way too many pictures. The boy needs some space.


  1. Your last comment was so cute! and I love his facial expression! Hang in there Mama.... this is a TOUGH one! We love you!!!!!!!!!

  2. "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

    You are doing a great job. Trust that Beckham will overcome and you'll have many more Christmases to come together.